I've been really busy . Sorry for abandoning again . It's the fourth week of 2011 . It has been a biatch for me . No joke . Lately I feel as if I'm in a constant melancholic state . Nothing feels or seems important to me anymore . I've been trying to avoid such foul feeling , but all of these unfamiliar , vexation gestures around me just doesn't help that much . Thanks for making me feel like a total life ruiner , your verbal actions showed it all . Not just a particular person , but a bunch . And to be honest , I don't even have a slight mere of heart for any of you heinous kind of people . What happened to the phrase; "Never judge a book by its cover" that your parents have been educating you all this while ?
Please , Oh dear God , please don't give me detachment for me to write as an epiphany .
I have never in my life , felt this way before . Like the whole world is turning it's back on me , stepping on me , spitting on me . Seeing me as a sinful , immoral person . Never . What have they done to me ? I have put myself in a shoe full of manners , and controllable anger . But they treat me this way back ?
If this is just a part of Allah's challenge to me , then I'll take it as it is , because I believe this all going to lead to something .
