Another side of me has gone

I'm never alive these days . Half of me just flew to nowhere . Some things just go , you know . But I am ready to face any consequences for the wrong choices I made , I feel rebellious at this point of moment , I feel like getting involved in everything I would not want to . Contravaning rules of life . I don't always feel this way before . I'm not scared to be different , not at all . Impressive I must say . Some people are just happy with themselves . I feel envious all the time like seriously . Some people just don't care about their appearances , what they wear , how they talk and walk . Nothing would go wrong as long as they're comfortable with it . Well I can never be that person . I'm too insecure about myself . I care about what people might say and think . 

As much as I try to deny it , it's true .